Its Almost Fall!!!

Hey! Its been a minute since ive post but ive been busy. Ok its really a mix of kinda busy, realy didnt have anything to say & being lazy. But i have something really big to say, so hear goes; Im getting my G.E.D!!! Yay me. I cant believe im actually saying that out in the open. I dont know why i felt for so long that it was how Chris Rock said it best, the ''good enough dimpolma''. I had the stimga against it. Like people would judge me if i said i was getting my ged. i dont know why i thought such things. So much of the crap i put myself though trying to get is because i did it to myself. I let what other people ( not anyone close to me thank God) thought or from what ive heared put these things in my head about it. Some say its so easy you really dont need to study. Really? That is so not true! I've been out of school since i was about 16. I have just turned 23 last month. You do the math thats about 7 years! Well really more like 6. Since that was in 2003 & its 2009 now. Anyway thats a very long time and most of the stuff i was good at in high school im still good at now. But math & science is kicking my butt.HARD. Ive wasted so much time having this notion in my head that i wasnt good enough if i got my ged. Which in hinsight is crazy! For so long i was ashame to say no i dont have one or n i didnt graduate. I think if you ask most people that know me, they have either assumed ive have a ged or a high school diploma or something. Because i dont talk about for fear that i was being judged. For the people that really care about me i truly, truly doubt that. I think that there are just happy that im finally doing something with my life. And to all that think that the ged test is easy.Its not.at all. But i think im going to pass it. I hope i pass it. Im going to pass it. Now off to find a math & science tutor. :)

Be your OWN leader.

I have just come to realize that i dont do what everybody else is doing. Not really a peer pressure kind of thing either just when others like something or its the "it" thing of the moment i cant stand it! When somebody tells me "oh such & such was a great movie" or ''this album is so good'' i avoid it at all cost. I have no idea why i do this but i think it all started from when i was little. Remeber the game follow the leader? Well i hated that game. Unless i was the leader. I know that might be true for most but i flat out refuse to play if i couldnt be the leader. On the rare chance i did follow someone elses leadership, we always wind up doing stupid crap. Stuff like we could actually get hurt doing it. But we did. Just because we followed the leader. Now i know it was just a dumb game but even today we do alot of dumb mess trying to follow others. But i realized, if im going to do stupid sh** im going to do my own stupid sh** & noone elses. I think most people are afraid to be they own person. They might think what they like or do is ''weird''. I really dont understand what weird is. Cuz what is think is weird might be normal to you. & thats all that matters. So from now on, imma be my own leader & do what makes me smile.

HELLO ALL

Hi!! This is my first blog & im so excited!! So i guess i'll tell yall what this is all about. I called it clutching my pearls because in my day to day life i just have those moments when ive just got to hold on to something & pearls are just soo lady like, so why not? LOL. In this blog im going to be sharing my stories about life,gossip,celeb & non celeb. Some beauty tips(well mostly nails cause thats my luv) & anything else that happens to pop up in this mind of mine. So i hope you enjoy. Sit back & enjoy & get ready to clutch your pearls. :)